Today while running I had to listen to a song twice to catch all the words. It is a SNOW PATROL song and the last line made me think of this adoption journey so much! Here are the lyrics to the song, and I know this song is probably for a girl, but to me all I could think of was my two sweet kids in Haiti. I put the parts that make me think of Amos and Story in bold.
Tell me if I'm going crazy
But everything you said amazed me
It seems too easy on the ear to
Be something I should adhere to
You told me to just simply wonder
Rather than take shelter under
And open my heart to the thought that
life is something you're not caught at
Too easy to get lost in progress
I didn't see you there in that dress
And suddenly the world seems so small
We'd fit it all inside our front hall
Edison would spin in his grave
To ever see the light that you gave
Don't want to take it nice and slow here
Don't want to waste a minute more dear
The universe just vanished out of sight
And all the stars collapsed behind the pitch black night
And I can barely see your face in front of mine
But it is knowing you are there that makes me fine
Maybe its the warmer climate
Maybe I'm a smarter primate
Maybe its the beer I'm drinking
Maybe I've stopped over thinking
Baby you're the words and chapters
The sweetness in the morning after
You are the cry that turns to laughter
You're the hope that ends disaster
The universe just vanished out of sight
And all the stars collapsed behind the pitch black night
And I can barely see your face infront of mine
But it is knowing you are there that makes me fine
But the universe is just an empty space
And all the stars can disappear without a trace
I'm so glad that this has taken me so long
Cos it's the journey that made me so strong
I'm not feeling like this LONG and GRUELING journey is so fun right now, but I'm hoping in the end when it is all said and done and these kids are home with us that I'll be able to look back and see how this journey has made me stronger. That's my prayer these days. Make me stronger through the things that are uncomfortable for me.
The ups and downs, trials and turbulence of international adoption are the kind of growth experiences that my husband and I would have never chosen for ourselves (yes, we chose adoption, but as to the intricacies of the legal process, well… we always say, naivete was our friend). If there is one thing that we are thankful for in adoption (aside from the INCOMPRABLE blessing of our GORGEOUS daughter) it is how we’ve grown up and out together as a husband and wife and as a family through all the trial and heartache.
I can only imagine what you all are going through since we’ve never adopted a child. Please know our family is praying for all of you daily!
…praying and praying for your babies to come home to you guys!!!
my heart aches for your story! my husband and i are praying for you guys and the little ones. i am new to the blogging world. my husband got me addicted to it. we feel God calling us to adopt one day, and you guys’ story has helped confirm it.