I can't even begin to tell you the feelings that I went to bed with and woke up with this morning.  We are waiting to hear travel plans and if everyone in our group has humanitarian parole or visas to travel with.  FOR THE FIRST TIME since we began this I feel as though my child seriously might be coming home.

To think that our son, Amos, who started this whole thing could finally be home with us is amazing.  It is weird to think about all my kids being here and truthfully I'm so ready for this whole thing to be over.  Adoption is hard.  It will wear you down.  It brings out the best and the worst and you.  It will make you rely on strength that you never knew you had.  Adoption has done that for us.  We have strong moments and moments that we don't want anyone to know about b/c we are so weak in those moments.

This morning we were woken up about 5:30 from a call from a great friend and as I lay there trying to get back to sleep I kept thinking of my verse for this month that I'm working on.  The part that kept playing over my mind was “and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard you hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”  Oh isn't that good.  I'm begging this supernatural peace to be not only over our hearts but also over the heart of our sweet baby boy.  He has been through so much in the past week.   He's been staying in an unfamiliar place since Monday, he has lived through aftershock after afterschock, and he knows that his momma and papa are trying to get him home.  Oh I pray for the peace of God to be on his heart and mind today.

We are packing a bag today and will be ready to go whenever they say go.  Could be today, could be tomorrow, could be next week.  We're getting ready though.  Thanks for continuing to pray, call, email and text us.  If you call and I don't answer just know that sometimes I just can't talk about it for another minute and I love you and will call you back soon!

amos and story

*Praying these two are reunited VERY soon!