my emotions. by jamieivey | Mar 24, 2009 | My Story | 13 comments Lately blogging has been a huge struggle for me. 13 Comments Kim S. on March 24, 2009 at 10:41 pm Been there, done that, and I totally understand!!! I will continue to pray for you and Fedna. It is so hard. I bet her parents were so blessed. I love the picture of you with your kids. They are adorable! Heather on March 24, 2009 at 10:54 pm I’m so sorry. I really can’t imagine what you’re going through. We’re praying for you guys and Wyatt has started praying for Cayden and Deacon to get their brother and sister home soon. Stephanie on March 25, 2009 at 5:59 am Jamie, Your post brought tears to my eyes. I dread saying goodbye on my upcoming trip because there are no more funds for another trip after this one. Will my kids even remember me when I’m gone? Probably not. 🙁 I guess they are closer in age/understanding to Story than to Amos. I love that Amos is so attached to Aaron. You can even see it in the family picture! He is pointed to his daddy and grinning so big. What a precious moment. Stacy on March 25, 2009 at 6:34 am Jaime, Your post really touched my heart. The pictures are great. You have a GORGEOUS family and beautiful kids (all 4 of them!). It must be incredibly hard…hang in there (I know so much easier said then done). I can’t imagine what your “norm” feels like. I can’t wait to see pics of your WHOLE family united under one roof! It WILL happen! God’s timing is perfect (but I totally understand it does NOT always feel like that). I wish it was easier for you right now and you were all home under one roof. Praying for you! Stacy kimrhodes on March 25, 2009 at 7:26 am I love you Jamie…. And with that am always praying for you guys on this journey. You’ve been through so much these past 6 months… things your heart deals with that many people never once experience. I’m praying for some good rest time for you leading into summer. Rest for yourself. I’m glad you are running again…. I’m hoping it will be a good time for you personally each run you get to take off on and that one day in the future when you look back on the past journey you will see God’s hand all over every single detail that you walked through….. Love gives….. no one ever said giving was easy… It’s the hardest thing to do is to give of yourself but I have loved seeing “love” all over you…. as you have given…. theinnermostbox on March 25, 2009 at 8:04 am I know that what you did for Fedna is a bit different than this… but hearing your heart for her, during the time that you had her, and especially now that you have said goodbye to her, has made me think and pray continually for the foster family that is taking care of our girl right now. Until her forever home, until her forever family, they are loving her like nobody’s business (spoiling her rotten, in fact)! 🙂 They are her home, they are her family. And even though I am the one she calls “mommy,” they fill that mommy-place in her life right now. I cannot imagine what their heartbreak will be like when they have to say goodbye to her. You did such a good job of filling that mommy-place in Fedna’s life while she was in the US. I am sure that she will not soon forget that, nor soon stop living a life which bears the marks of being well loved by you! Praying for you and for you day that will bring Amos and Story to you forever – for that great day when they will get on that airplane with you! Tamara Cosby on March 25, 2009 at 8:10 am I love you! And I love Amos & Story and Cayden & Deacon and Fedna!!! OH, and of course, Aaron 😉 debraparker on March 25, 2009 at 9:38 am Love you, love your heart. I know what it is like to have emotions in many different places and have to wait to voice something, if anything. I have a lot on my plate along with the adoption that is stirring that for me. You are being prayed for. Summer is a great time of year, let’s dream it up! Lara on March 25, 2009 at 1:56 pm Hi Jamie – your posts about Fedna have brought up a lot of memories for me about our little “heart-son” from Africa who lived with us on a medical visa for 8 months. I will never forget him, every moment that we had together. He touched our lives in immeasurable ways. When people would say, oh, you are nice to do this, I would answer, no, he is blessing us so so much. The drive home after dropping him off to go back to his country, to his loving parents, was the longest drive of my life. We were all weeping and stunned with sorrow. But then the most amazing day-time sunset started happening. It was totally sent by God and it reminded me that I was doing his work and that I should rejoice. We will forever love our boy! I feel really privileged to have been in his life. You shine brighter because of Fedna and she because of you! nancymattingly on March 25, 2009 at 8:42 pm you are one of the bravest women I know. Most would not ever take the chance to love and care for someone like Fedna. It’s beautiful. Like Scripture come to life. I thank God for you. constantly. And praying always. much love. Kristen on March 26, 2009 at 11:12 am I can’t imagine the mixed emotions you are feeling right now. I am sure you are grieving and rejoicing for Fedna at the same time. Her absence must be such a reminder that you should have a fuller house, soon!! Angie, RN on March 27, 2009 at 12:09 pm We totally understand your emotions. Its so difficult to leave the kids you love so very much. When we had to leave Wislaine our hearts broke! I understand how your heart grieves right now. We will be praying for God’s strength for you and Aaron right now. I know its difficult! God bless! Diane on March 28, 2009 at 1:01 pm Hi Jamie, Just reading this makes my heart sad, so, I can’t even begin to know how you are feeling. In reading this, my mind wandered onto sweet Fedna. I wonder about how she understands all this…stepping outside our safe comfort zones can be an amazingly, loving, yet, painful journey all at the same time….not sure if that makes sense to anyone, unless, as you have, they have truly, and, I mean really and truly stepped outside of their comfort zone. I continue to just smile so big at the thought of your children all being together, and, one day in Heaven, you will see the bigger picture of God’s Hand in your journey with sweet girl, Fedna. Submit a Comment Cancel replyYour email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *Comment Name * Email * Website This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.