Can I just confess something here real quick?
I love to eat.
Adoption has brought out the worst in my food struggles.
During our last year of waiting I gained a little weight. Then Amos came home and I ran to food for comfort in that year that felt as it was straight from hell.
I have been eating gross. I need a cleanse. I need a push. I need a challenge. I need something to make me exhibit self control because I seriously suck at exhibiting self control with food.
So ….. tomorrow starts the Master Cleanse. I did this back in January, and went 7 days. I honestly could have gone longer but I was so dang ready to just chew food and enjoy eating. It was hard for me, but I did it and I'm ready to do it again.
Here's the funny part. When you start you are supposed to ease in. First day eat only raw fruits and veggies. Then the next day you drink a special broth. Then on the 3rd day you officially begin the lemonade cleanse. Y'all I eased in today with sweet potato lasagna, chips & salsa, and taco soup. I just might have me some dessert tonight as well. I don't even crave dessert, but somehow knowing I won't eat anything for 7 days makes me want dessert!
So tomorrow should be hard. I'm probably making this harder on myself by jumping in without the ease in days. I'm gonna go out on a limb here and say they suggest those for a reason.
Ah who needs ease in days!
After my week on this I have another plan that I'll share with you next week. I'm hoping to spend the next 4 weeks focusing on losing weight and gaining control over my thoughts of food and eating. I'm hoping to dig deeper into the reasons behind why I run to food for comfort. Why I can stand at the fridge and stuff cheese into my mouth while no one is looking. Yes, I really just said that out loud. Wow. I guess admitting you have a problem is the first step!
Anyone want to join me on the cleanse? Come on, it's only SEVEN days of no eating!!!!
Hey Jamie! Check out a book called “Intuitive Eating” by Evelyn Tribole and Elyse Resch…seriously changed my life re: food, eating, diets, exercise, etc. Highly, highly recommend it!
jamie, i’ve been drinking green smoothies nonstop lately. it’s replaced coffee for me. try them after your cleanse. miss you!
I may want to do this with you! I was just reading about fasting and thinking that i’ve always been scared to try it, because i LOVE eating so much. I have done Made to Crave by Lysa Terkeurst twice now, considering it a 3rd time. When I am in her study it makes it so much easier to control my cravings and point them where they should be – towards God. Try it if you need a new book to read and good luck!
I just googled the Cleanse and I am thinking about trying it. I feel so so so gross. I am morbidly obese and quite tired of it. I have always struggled with my weight but the last year has been especially hard. Hubby was unemployeed for 385 days and I really turned to food (cheap fattening food) during that time. Praise God he got a job in August in another city but we are living apart unitl his benefits start November 1st and I can quit my job and move there to be with him. Life is just not fun right now and hasnt been fun for quite some time. Food has been my friend. Maybe the CLeanse would be the jump start I need to begin a more healthy lifestyle. Sounds likeit is really hard to do but even if I make it only 3 days maybe that will help me get on track! Thank you for your post today!
I agree with Amanda – I’ve reading Intuitive Eating & it’s a great book! Definitely check it out.
Jamie,
I so appreciate this blog post! I struggle with food too and when I try to eat better I’m taunted with thoughts of every bad food imaginable! I also run to food for comfort (and every other emotion) and I appreciate you blogging about this because it is really helping me where I am right now to know that there is another strong Christian out there who struggles with this too. Sometimes that is easy to forget. Especially when everyone around you is saying, “Oh it’s not big deal, go ahead and eat that.” But it’s a heart issue. Anyway, this is a rambly comment but I appreciate your honesty and you blogging about this 🙂