Can I just confess something here real quick?

I love to eat.

Adoption has brought out the worst in my food struggles.

During our last year of waiting I gained a little weight. Then Amos came home and I ran to food for comfort in that year that felt as it was straight from hell.

I have been eating gross. I need a cleanse. I need a push. I need a challenge. I need something to make me exhibit self control because I seriously suck at exhibiting self control with food.

So ….. tomorrow starts the Master Cleanse. I did this back in January, and went 7 days. I honestly could have gone longer but I was so dang ready to just chew food and enjoy eating. It was hard for me, but I did it and I'm ready to do it again.

Here's the funny part. When you start you are supposed to ease in. First day eat only raw fruits and veggies. Then the next day you drink a special broth. Then on the 3rd day you officially begin the lemonade cleanse. Y'all I eased in today with sweet potato lasagna, chips & salsa, and taco soup. I just might have me some dessert tonight as well. I don't even crave dessert, but somehow knowing I won't eat anything for 7 days makes me want dessert!

So tomorrow should be hard.  I'm probably making this harder on myself by jumping in without the ease in days.  I'm gonna go out on a limb here and say they suggest those for a reason.

Ah who needs ease in days!

After my week on this I have another plan that I'll share with you next week.  I'm hoping to spend the next 4 weeks focusing on losing weight and gaining control over my thoughts of food and eating.  I'm hoping to dig deeper into the reasons behind why I run to food for comfort.  Why I can stand at the fridge and stuff cheese into my mouth while no one is looking.  Yes, I really just said that out loud.  Wow.  I guess admitting you have a problem is the first step!

Anyone want to join me on the cleanse?  Come on, it's only SEVEN days of no eating!!!!