OH MY WORD have my emotions been all over the place this past weekend. I have been very guarded in this whole process in my thoughts about this earthquake allowing Amos to come home. For one reason it's hard for me to think about something so awful paving the way for my son to come home sooner. And number two I have been so hurt in this whole adoption process that I didn't want to let my heart hurt that way again.
Last Spring were some of the hardest days of my life with this process. My heart was hurt. Broken. I made it through it and I truly believe I am stronger now b/c of those trials, but that doesn't mean I want to put my heart out there again like that. I'm learning that the more we put our heart out the stronger we become. Also the more my heart hurts the more I have to rely on God to be my strength. Hard lessons for a momma longing for her son to come.
Yeterday we received some very good news about our adoption and we also received lots of emails that were confusing and not sure what they meant. We are busting our tails trying to get Amos home. We are hopeful and yet fearful all at the same time. Yesterday I had a very high high and a very low low. It was hard. I think Aaron thought I was having a break down. It was as if everything I had been holding in for the whole week was overflowing and I couldn't stop the emotions from coming. I was broken for my son, for his country, for my friends there that are tirelessly working to help people. I was just broken. After a big cry and a big talk from Aaron and a big sleep I feel much better today.
As I was up this morning at 5 checking my email (I've been getting up in the middle of the night this week just to see if anything happened) I looked over and saw my verse that I printed out at the beginning of this month to memorize. Two girlfriends of mine have challenged me to work on this and for that I'm grateful. I had it printed but during the last week haven't read it once. I have been to preoccupied to read the verse I'm supposed to be memorizing. Too busy to work on this. Too busy to see how God wants to speak to me through his word.
Here it is:
Do not be anxious in anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God that passes all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable – if anything is excellent or praiseworthy – think about these things. Philippians 4: 6-8
Oh my word is that relevant to me today. I'm praying this prayer today for our family. Will you join me in praying this for ALL adoptive parents who are desperately wanting to get their kids out of Haiti and home where they belong.
THANK YOU a million times. I need to hear this, as do many during their process. People do not understand why I am so excited, frustrated etc…since I don’t technically have kids in Haiti right now….for those who have been and seen, they need no explaination!
AMEN sister! read it over and over. I added vs 4&5 to mine. “Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again, Rejoice! let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near.” Rejoice…always?! really?! The Lord is near. there is comfort in that. Praying for you sister. Love you lots.
God’s word is perfection!!!! May His word sooth and carry your heavy hearts and fill your families with His perfect peace! I pray He surrounds you with all things praise worthy!
So….know that I am taking a break from work right now to pray for you, Aaron, all of Haiti’s orphans and especially Amos Ivey!
We love you guys and continue to pray.
I too will pray that….
Praying that for you (and other parents) today, Jamie.
I saw you on CNN; you looked beautiful and spoke very well. Praying that God would continue to use you and your family.
I need this, too. Big time.
My family is still here, still praying and praying little Amos home to his family. My family has and will continue to lift your Son, Amos, and his precious famiy, up nightly. My daughters,Jana(9), Jadyn(8) and JOY(6) were Blessed to see their prayers for Story answered and I just know they will smile so big when we can say that Amos is home!
Praying and praying!!
Praying for you.
Jamie, Jamie, Jamie. I am on that roller coaster with you. Big day yesterday of highs and lows. I love you!
Waiting for your call.
PERFECT timing. love it. thank you 🙂
My heart has been so heavy for all of you. That verse is one of my favorite verses..have it posted above my desk. It is also one of the hardest to live by. But God is gracious, just, loving, and forgiving. Out of ashes he will make beauty. Prayers for the people in Haiti’s…especially the little ones! I can not even imagine your heartache!
Deuteronomy 31:8b “…he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged”
I love when God does that! I’m praying, praying, praying for you…
Hi Jamie, I’ve been reading your blog for a long time! We started the process to adopt from Haiti around the same time. Although, our adoption hit a lot of road bumps and we were not nearly as far along in the process as you were when the earthquake hit! Last night our children came home!!! It still feels so surreal. I can’t even believe they are here! I just wanted to encourage you, because I KNOW what it is like to be up at 5am checking emails and working feverishly to try to get your kids home. And even until the moment they were in my arms, I continued to guard my heart against believing they were actually coming home, because I had been so damaged by this process. Children are coming home! Mine did, and I am more then confident that you will be holding your sweet son VERY soon!
We’re praying that he is with you VERY soon and for the other families who are worrying & waiting.