Yesterday was Amos' birthday and I must say it was one of my lowest days in this whole process for me. I didn't want the day to happen. I wanted him here for his birthday. I didn't want him to still be there. Him and his sister need to be here. I did much of NOTHING yesterday. I was sappy. I cried. I ate. I read. I did NOTHING productive. I couldn't. I was choosing to be sad and grumpy yesterday.

Amos is missing us. One of us has visited him 5 times during our process. He knows us and is old enough to realize that we come and go and he's not so sure about it anymore. We will continue to visit our kids. We need to keep developing the bond that we've created with him and keep developing one with our sweet Story girl.

Yesterday Aaron blogged about his birthday. It was a hard day for us. I apologize if you called, I just couldn't answer the phone. It was one of those days where you just want to crawl in bed and sleep until the next day. I knew the next day I would be fine, and today I was.

We were able to talk to Amos last night and that was so wonderful! It was so good to sing to him and tell him how much I love him. Each of the boys talked with him and sang Happy Birthday to him. He just kept wanting to talk more and more to his papa. He loves Aaron with a special love. We are overwhelmed with the way God has already bonded them together.

Here's a video we made for him last nigh – I know I have an awful voice b/c Aaron tells me I'm tone deaf … or whatever that means – please don't let that distract you from this moment!